24 days later....
Hello friends and family. So, it's been 24 days since my last update and I think it's safe to say that I did not make my Silver goal this time which was to be at 215 pounds.
Anyway, though I am not proud of myself, I am proud to say that I have not gained either, well, actually, I did gain, and then haven't gained. Does that make sense? Okay, this is the situation, I'll step on the scale ( I only weigh myself in the morning and after my morning tinkle or tankle, which is go poo-poo in my world ) and it will read 230, then the next day I'll do the same thing and it will read 231.5, then another day it read 234, then two days later it will be back to 230....Like Joey from Blossom would say "Whoa!"...
So, I don't get what is going on, what I do know, is my clothes are fitting better which is cool and I don't feel bloated and as tired much. I did end my 100 days of no rice. Oh, man did I end it! It was on August 29, 2009 I actually went 105 days without rice. Anyway, here is a pic of me finally enjoying some sushi at a little spot in Vallejo called Yo Sushi...
As I mentioned in previous post, I have this condition called
GOUT that sometimes affects certain joints in my body, such as my knee, elbow, ankles and sometimes hands. Well, losing the first 25 pounds has helped a bit, but I did suffer an attack on my knee and elbow the first week of September. I was really upset about this attack because I feel I am doing all I can to prevent them. Taking the meds and staying away from foods that trigger the Gout. My wife Jinky and I tried to think about what I had eaten to set off this latest episode. The only thing I could think of was the sushi! Well, that and I had been eating brown rice, which I never had before, I've done some research using this thing called the "Internet" ( heard of it? ) and I got different results of whether or not Brown rice or even White Rice is bad for Gout. I am thinking of going another 100 days without rice all together. I have already decided to eliminate fast food joints from my life for a year and do not want to eat anything fried anymore if I can help it. Jeez, before long, I won't be able to eat anything at all! I need to push though. I need to get to that silver goal and I want to be there before my 36th birthday which is exactly 3 months from today. I think hitting this wall of forgetting what my life mission is, is a good thing as I am learning from this whole lifestyle change. I can now tell myself, okay, you've eaten enough or seconds or thirds is not an option. My portion control is on par and I have even shocked some of my family members when I say that I am done after just one serving. I understand that there will be speed bumps on this journey but it's up to me to continue to improve and "re-invent" who I want to be. Here is a picture of me 5 months ago from today at my cousins wedding, this was on 4.18.09 and I weighed about 255 pounds:
This is me today 9.18.2009 and at 230 pounds ( but with a TON of neck fat still...):
The reason for the "Jus, Live blogspot" was to document everything I have and will try to do to get to the goal I want to finally be and live at. It's also a way to be honest with not just myself, but with all those that choose to read this blog. So, to be brutally honest, I admit in the last 24 days I have lost so much focus on how I should of been eating. I've eaten carbs after 5pm, had ice cream and cheese cake and Nation's pie and eaten bags and bags of gummie Lifesavers like they were going out of style and you know what? I feel so guilty inside. I feel like I've cheated on my wife, or neglected my kids. I feel like I murdered someone, chopped up the body, buried it and now live paranoid that the authorities will track me down. So, like the title of this entry says: " T-ine tu git' ORGUUN-NIZED Main..." it's what Tony Montana said to himself in the final scene of Scarface. Granted, he go shot to death in the end and fell into a pond from the second story of his balcony, but none the less, his intentions were good, so should be mine.
With that said, it's time to get back on track, by eating right, working out and realizing that I am cheating on those who love me by not sticking to my promise of being healthy for them. Like I said; " T-ine tu git' ORGUUN-NIZED Main..." 215 pounds, here I come BITCH!
TTFN.
PS: Nothing inspires a person more in life, than knowing he has people behind them, drop me a line sometime if you can, to let me know you are behind me!
